Discontinuing this blog

With new year, I have one announcement, I am moving this blog to a new address, so I am discontinuing this blog from now on, further blog posts will be at the address, www.geekybuddha.org

I wanted to make a central place for all my online feeds, updates, so I took this decision. This blog has been a great success for me. I started it more than 2 years back, since than it has been a place for me to share my thoughts. I am grateful to all my readers who read it, posted comments and encouraged me to write more. I will continue to write on my new blog, hope that I will get similar response there, good luck to all and a very happy new year.

Thoughts!

1. While I am writing here, I am not feeling much good, my problem is that I can't be same for more than 2-3 days, I become all totally a different person! It become even tougher for me to recognize myself! Internally it become even more tough! Though I have become little better in last few months, but still I need to become little more better! You don't know, how tough it become to handle someone totally strange to you! And even tougher it become to complete the task someone different you started!
2. Now a days I have getting very different experiences of my life, they can't be categorized in good or bad, they are sweet experiences indeed! I am thankful to someone for making me feel special in some way, and boosting my belief in unconditional bonds! There are few relationships, you can't name them, they are just what they are!
   
3. Expression is tough! The toughness is the sweetness! I hate internet sometimes for it is not being able to express the emotions :) Though it make expression easier but I think thats useless in some cases!
4. Its always better to be on the other side!

I thought I should collect random thoughts in one post, so the numbering!

Being Sakshama through Sakshama

Writing here after ages, Its gonna be interesting now, We have a college fest called Sakshama, a national level techfest, initiated by our senior AKM when he was in his final year and I was in second year! Sakshama was started with a bang! Was a great start for our college as we didn't have anything as good and as large as it was planned, before. Being in second year you can imagine the amount of excitement I had about the fest! The bad thing is that not many people were as excited as a few of us were! Recalling all that now I feel that it was like starting a small company with something you are passionate about and you feel like doing anything for it. We were a small group of people doing everything, website, posters, events, inviting people, registrations everything was being done by almost 10 of us, four from final year and six from second year! The good thing was the driving force behind all this was pure! We wanted to do something big! During the last days of fest people started coming and joining the team, team grew! It was very pleasant to see! The first edition of the fest taught me so many things that I will carry with myself whole my life! In the first year, I became passionate about entrepreneurship! I had my startup in my mind all the time, Sakshama 797 helped me living that dream! During the three days of fest, everything went so well that! It was an effort worth millions!

And Then came the next version of Sakshama called Sakshama X08! My role changed! from a newbie doing everything I become into the technical stuff! Again learnt a lots of things! Ah! I remember how things changed! Now sakshama had a proper office, computers, internet, huge team and a big budget lots of people to plan, lots of ideas to implement the common thing between the 797 and X08 was that we had same passion, we the group of people from third year now had bigger responsibilities this time and yes we had better knowledge this time. I remember spending nights alone in Sakshama Chamber doing website stuff, planning , carving ideas with the same passion and the thing that I learnt from X08 was hard work, I used that in my life and achieved so many things! There were few bad experiences as well, especially they occur when things get popular everyone tries to get the maximum benefit from it, so unwanted people got attracted, but that's natural, there was always a balance between good and bad, and good always dominated! The experience of 797 helped us plan things easily, the glory of 797 attracted crowd with lesser efforts, we had a good budget now, good resources, good team so everything eventually went well in the end!

I am now in final year, again we have Sakshama this year called Generation Next! Being in final year , priorities changed, we have so many things in mind! And its Generation next so I always wanted that next generation should handle everything this time! But I guess not everyone was amused by this, so I am again in the team, doing same old stuff! And obviously its now easy to do those things! GN09 is huge now, we have the largest team almost 500 people this time in the team, budget is huge, the culture we started in college is now growing, students are passionate about Sakshama, everyone is coming with ideas and ways to implement them, its exactly what I wanted to happen when I was in first year and its now happening! I should be happy!

The old thing is happening to Sakshama, Sakshama is again teaching me lessons of my life, It showed me where need to improve in my life! I will keep this experience with me in my mind if I ever start something of my own!

This is the time when a college like ours can choose if it really wants to be in the bigger league or just remain in the B grade college, the mind set of students is changing, but nothing seems to be changing in the administration and here is the danger that things can turn to the wrong side!

I am no one to advice anyone but the love for my college and love for the things we have done for it makes me write this that if we can model something on the system used in IITs or such premier institute and turn this energy in the right path I am sure we can do wonders! I know its not anyone's headache to take care of this matter, things will be better with time, but isnt it like making things better by ruining life of 4-5 batches, not everyone is capable of taking care of their life like few of us can do. Why it happens that reformation become so tough even knowing that college can grow only if students grow and growth of college will make all things even better, doesn't everyone like to be recalled for good things? It's sad that everyone likes to be in the position he/she is,

Sometimes I feel that isnt it possible that college become a place that everyone likes to be there always, only one person can do this and that person is I dont know why keeping his eyes closed? It's not just about the college, its about anything, office should be the place everyone likes to be in, home should be the place everyone likes to be in.

Its damn frustrating that at the place where we are investing four most important years of our life, is giving us such bad experiences that we start thinking that life is like this. Why we all selfish people become so blind when it comes to our own lives and lives of our children and future of our country ? It's the conditioning of mind that is being set in these four years make this country what it is today!

If I were the principal of this college or any other such engineering college, the very moment I get the power, I will have a meet with all students, for a week or so! It would not cost anything and it will not harm anyone and yet it will do wonders! I will give people a second chance! A students body! A teachers body! This is what there should be!

Its important to make students stay in college, stop thinking about future and live in present!

Anyways! just random thoughts! came from nowhere!

Getting back to blogging

what should i write, life is good! Just completed my summer of code, for those who don't know, I was selected for Google Summer of Code 2009, for Sahana. Result of final evaluation are yet to to come, I am quite excited about it. Would post more soon. This post is to break the ice. I need to blog more! See you soon.

तेरा चेहरा

तेरा चेहरा पता नहीं क्यूँ?
तेरा चेहरा पता नहीं, सच में क्यूँ?
हर पल रहता है मेरे ख्यालों में,
पता नहीं सच में क्यूँ?

जब में कुछ नहीं करता हूँ,
तो समझो सोचता रहता हूँ,
तेरे बारे में, पता नहीं क्यूँ?

और जब मैं सोचता हूँ
की क्या सोचता हूँ तेरे बारे
में तो पता नहीं चलता क्या
सोचता हूँ तेरे बारे में।

सच में अगर कोई पूछ ले
कैसी दिखती हो?
पता नहीं मुझे।
क्यूँ इतनी अच्छी लगती हो,
ऐसा क्या है तुममें,
मैं कभी नहीं बता पाऊँगा।

ये भी नहीं पता की तुम वही
हो जो मैं सोचता हूँ, या नहीं?
पर जानना भी नहीं चाहता।

बस ये पता है की क्यूँ
नहीं जानना चाहता?
शायद मुझे डर लगता है,
किस बात का, ये नहीं पता।

From the letter

Another excerpts from *the letter* I am yet to give :(

"I close my eyes, I see a large pool filled with colored water and I am hanging above it with head towards the pool, I fell into it, get wet and colored, the rope
pull me back out of the pool and then put me again into it, like somebody is
aggressively putting me in pool, I open my eyes, I am sitting in room writing
this, I close my eyes this time the pool is filled with boiling what and again I
fell into it, the to and fro motion, I open my eyes, I am sitting here, again I close
my eyes this time the pool is filled with mud, and again I fell into it, then it
throws me out of it, I fell in sand and I am still smiling. Looks like its just my
imagination. But it may be symbolizing something. The last scene, my smiling
face made me fearless"